desertions | I Have Finally Made My Peace As Far As You And Me Go.....

You know this is the first time in my life I really think I've cut off a friend
She contacted me today, seeing if I wanted to try again
I don't know...I thought about it long and hard, and just tried to find the nicest way to say no
Gab's been one of my oldest online friends, but definetly one of the most stressful
It got to a point where I was extremely careful with what I said to her, because she was so critical, and so easily pissed off
I just...I can't deal with that.
I'm not one to easily give up, but I've put in alot of energy into that frienship, and I'm just...done
As horrible as it might sound, I've felt alot more relaxed this way
Most of my other friends, I don't have to tip toe around as much with
Now, I don't believe they "coddle" me as she likes to put it, but they don't believe that chewing someone out is always the best method either
Which I have to agree
And really, I didn't like the person I was in that friendship either
There was too much bitterness, and it's just, I think it was good we had closure
Though I do think it's kind of ironic that she'll probably go on calling herself Gab, when I was the one who originated that nickname in the first place
But in the long run, it had gotten to the point where I just wanted to talk to my other friends, and not so much her
I could only deal with her in my good moods, and let's be honest, in the past month or so, they've been rare
And I don't care if your journal is a place to rant, if I put something like me cutting in a private, friends only post, it is not okay to put it in a public one
Period
That's my issue, and not yours to talk about
Anyways...I'm getting rambly.
But I just needed to get this out here
The saga of Kat and Gab is over...finally
And some how, it seems fitting to use the song she had once said reminded her of us, and I have to say, it definetly describes my feelings of late on the whole subject

Song of the Entry:

Good Day by The Dresden Dolls

So you dont want to hear about my good song?
And you dont want to hear about how i am getting on
With all the things that i can get done
The sun is in the sky & i am by my lonesome
So you don't want to hear about my good day?
You have better things to do than to hear me say

God its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
I took out the trash today and i'm on fire...

So you don't want to hear about my good friends?
You dont have the guts to take the truth or consequence
Success is in the eye of the beholder
And its looking even better over your cold shoulder

I'm not suggesting you up and line me up for questioning
But jesus think about the bridges you are burning
And i'm betting
That even though you knew it from the start
You'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart

So go ahead and talk about your bad day...
I want all the details of the pain and misery
That you are inflicting on the others
I consider them my sisters and i'd like their numbers

God its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
I took up croquet today and i'm on fire

I picked up the pieces of my broken ego
I have finally made my peace as far as you and me go
But i'd love to have you up to see the place
& i'd like to do more than survive i'd like to rub it in your face.....

Hey! its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
I had so much fun today and i'm on fire
God it's been a lovely day everything's been going my way
Ever since you went away hey i'm on fire.....
I'm on fire...
I'm on fire...
So you dont want to hear about my good day?