Just when I think I can overcome...It runs even deeper...

[desertions]

Normally I look forward to group, it's one of the few places where i feel i can really express myself..
but today i felt almost attacked
See the group moderator/leader/therapist/person started saying that it was almost like me and the other cutter (names are being withheld for legal matters, dun want to be sued o.o;;) almost romatized or glorified cutting
neither one of saw it that way
then the other memebers started saying me sounded proud of it
if anything, I'm ashamed!
It's a weakness, i'm not even sure I have control of it,
who could be proud of something like that?
the whole thing got me depressed...
i just feel shitty...
and before i wasn't feeling anything...