Otherwise I'm Great, What About You?

[desertions]

Classes went pretty well yesterday
I really liked my Playwriting class
Even if I'm like the only eighteen year old in it
The teacher is awesome

I'm still not doing that great
I spent half of last night crying and talking to myself
I almost wanted to call someone-but it was 3 am
I feel so miserable lately
I miss her so much
Without my mom here, I feel incomplete
Like there's some sort of hole inside of me that can't get filled
And it's so easy when I'm around my friends to smile and pretend
It's so easy to act like I'm pulling through
But when I'm alone, I just seem to fall apart
Which makes me wonder, which is the real me?
The one I show them, or the one I show myself?

It's funny, because other then this stuff with my mom,
I'm really not doing all that badly
I just started classes that I like
And I have good friends, even if I don't see them much

But it's hard to see how good things are right now
It's hard to laugh and shrug things off when there's a constant pang
It's hard to have to talk yourself down every night

I just want her back
I don't know how to deal with the fact that my mother is dead
I'm tired of always loosing people
Why did I have to loose her too?

But really, other then that...
I'm fine

Song of the Entry:

Statue by Low Millions

The weatherman says goodnight
The Empire State Building’s turning off its lights
The refrigerator stops
And suddenly it’s quiet

I never noticed the ceilings were so low
I never saw all the cracks on the window
I never saw myself as sentimental but here I go

Without you
I’ve been standing 'round here like a statue
Laying on the floor, thinking about you
I talk to myself like the crazies do
Otherwise I’m great
What about you

Ain’t nothing going on here but the rent
I can’t account for how my days are spent
I wanna draw the line between who I am and who I invent

Without you
I’ve been standing 'round here like a statue
Laying on the floor thinking about you
I talk to myself like the crazies do
Otherwise I’m great
What about you
Yeah, what about you

The weatherman says blue skies, but it’s raining
Like the clouds all decided to cry
And every time you hurt me, I say
“It’s all right, it’s all right, it’s all right”

Without you
I’ve been standing 'round here like a statue
Laying on the couch all day like cats do
Waiting for the phone to ring but it won’t ring

Without you
I’ve been standing round here like a statue
Laying on the floor thinking about you
I talk to myself like the crazies do
Otherwise I’m great
What about you