Inside I Realize, I'm the One Confused...

[desertions]

fuck!
i feel like crying
and I'm not quite sure why...
I just feel really shit...
and I can't sleep...
God, why is it I can solve everyone else's problems.... (like I did with Meagen today...)
but mine won't leave me the hell alone?
I just want to sleep...
and not wake up....
or something...
or discover this was a dream
I just don't want this to be real anymore
I want another reality, is that so much to ask?