And That's All That I Need, Yeah, Someone Else To Cling To

[desertions]

Man...the only thing getting me through this is my friends
Seriously, you guys are amazing :O
So excited for Friday, more kareoke! And with G-chan as well this time!
Maybe he can threaten any creepy middle aged men who whistle at us this time >>
Ah, drunken men...they always seem to hit on me during kareoke
Oh well
And the cookie party on Sunday sounds like it'll be filled with awesomeness

I'm not really looking forwards to the Winter Solistace party thing on Saturday, but oh well
Hopefully not too many of my aunt and uncle friends will ask me bout my mom >>
If worst comes to worst, I'll go sleep in Zach's room or call someone or text or something

To be honest, these past few weeks have been hard
I'm not sleeping well, and I've been crying alot, and calling friends randomly so I don't feel so heartbreakingly alone
My family barely talks to me
No one seems to even care that I'm going through a horrible time without my mom right now
And the one time I almost wish my sister was around, she's of course nowhere to be found
I wish I could say I wasn't dissapointed, but I am

Holidays have rarely been easy on me, not since I was little
Too many bad memories of my mom in the mental hospital for them, or my grandpa in the regular one
And then three years ago, my sister got arrested on Christmas Eve
And two years ago I pratically tried to run away on Christmas due to a humongous fight I had with my grandma
Needless to say, not the best memories going on there

Friends and roleplay have been the only thing keeping me sane lately
And for that, all of you are friggin awesome
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
Seriously.

Finals will be over tommorow, and I couldn't be happier
They are such a fucking pain in the ass
And not the good kind of pain in the ass either

Oh! And here are the people I haven't seen in forever, but want to see during Christmas Break:
Renee
Emily (both of them)
Kelly
Meagen
Lisa
Marie
Monica
Phil

Hopefully I can at least do some of them, if not all of em :D

Song of the Entry:

All I Need by Matchbox Twenty

Everywhere someone's getting over
Everybody cries
And sometimes you can still lose even if you really try
Talking about the dream
Like the dream is over
Talk like that
Won't get you nowhere
Everybody's trusting in the heart
Like the heart don't lie

And that's all that I need, yeah
Someone else to cling to, yeah
Someone I can lean on
Until I don't need to
Just stay all through the night
In the morning let me down
Cause that's all that I need right now

Everywhere someone's getting over
Everybodys life is someone
People still use other people with a crooked smile
And all around the world there's a sinking feeling
Out there right now someone's feeling
Down on themselves and don't know why
Every night

And that's all that I need, yeah
Someone else to cling to, yeah
Someone I can lean on
Until I don't need to
Just stay all through the night, yeah
In the morning let me down
Cause that's all that I need right now

And life ain't no beauty show
We don't know where tomorrow ends
And when we're sad
It's kind of a drag

Just stay all through the night
In the morning let me down
Yeah, cause that's all that I need
Yeah, that's all that I need
Yeah, that's all that I need
That's all that I need right now
Right now