Will I Be Denied Christ?

[desertions]

ugh we got on the religion subject again
my grandma seemed annoyed that i saw no point in going to church
since I don't beilive in that shit
now i don't get me wrong, I beilive there's something there, just not "God"
And then my uncle was telling me how i should go, since it would please my mother
isn't that what I'm supposed to not do?
Try to always please my mom?
Right now I need to think for myself...
It's just, they made me feel like I'm not supposed to have my feelings about it
I ended up almost crying
and i told my grandma that if she wants me to still go to church, I will...
I just don't see the point in fighting a loosing battle...