But Time Makes You Older, Children Get Older, I'm Getting Older Too

[desertions]

So, as we had my birthday party and my actual birthday is coming up, I've been reflecting on things
This past year has been a turbulent one
I guess 18 is always a bit of a crazy age for someone
I can't really say I'm sad to see it go though
But not all the craziness was bad

I mean, I've made alot of changes
Some good, some bad
Some volunetary, some forced
but for everything that happened, I think I've only come out stronger for it.

So...Here's Katie's 18th year, split into pros and cons :O

Pros:
Graduating High School
Overcoming my mental breakdown during the middle of senior year
Making more friends
Learning how great my friends were
Learning more about myself and my dealing processes
A clearer view on my sexuality
Prom
The Tori Amos concert
Meeting Fransesca Lia Block
Meeting Gregory Macguire
AX 2005
Joining Cross Univeristy and meeting some awesometastic people there, like Tati and Davis, just to name two
Becoming better friends with Suu
Doing well in my first semester of college
Learning to just let things be
Improving my writing skills
Clearer ideal of my goals for a career

Cons:
My mother dying
Loosing Meagen
Having to let go of other friendships that were too one-sided (Rachel being the most obvious one)
Rejection
Slipping up with cutting
Nearly failing senior year
Almost running away from home a few times
Suu going to the army D:
Depression
Dissapointment
Finacial struggles
Writer's block
Lack of motivation
My sister still hasn't moved out
Fighting more with family
First real, true heartache

And there was probably other things that I've forgotten, as after all, it was a whole year
But, as much bad things as there was, there was alot of good too
And unlike last year, where I found myself dreading turning any older, I find myself okay with it
Things will change, things will happen
I will change, I will loose people, but I will survive
Life goes on
And what doesn't kill you makes you stronger

And I know when I'm weak, I have people who are going to help me through

And that makes things a bit easier.

Song of the Entry:

Landslide by Fleetwood Mac

I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
’till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing
’cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I’m getting older too

Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down

If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe the landslide will bring it down