May angels lead you in

[desertions]

Today sucked
June 2 will always suck
why?
because it's the anniversy of my grandfathers death
Grandpa...
now I've lost two dads...
God damnit...
no wonder I'm so fucking scared to let someone in...
they always either die or leave...
it's better to be alone in the first place than give them the chance to betray/ abandon you
but knowing that..
well it doesn't make things hurt any less
in fact,
in some ways it hurts more

Douglas Dale Carlson
1921-2001
R.I.P

I'll always love you grandpa