desertions | Fanfiction: Saiyuki: Rain

Title: Rain

Series: Saiyuki

Pairing: Gojyo/Hakkai (Do I write anything else D: )

Rating: Pg-13

Summaries: Sanzo and Hakkai hate the rain, but Gojyo loves it.

I love the rain.

Sanzo hates it.

And more importantly, Hakkai hates it too.

Goku hates the snow, but that’s another topic all together.

The other two fucking hate the rain though.

But I love it.

I always have. When I was a kid, Jien used to play with me in the rain, and it always lots of fun. Maybe it’s the kappa in me that draws me to it. I have no idea . I would use any excuse to walk in it, even into adulthood. Still do, what I get the chance.

But you know why it bugs me so much that Hakkai hates the rain. Because to him, it’s the day he lost everything.

But for me, it was the day I got everything. I mean, my life was a piece of shit before. Every day was exactly the same. I was just going through the motions because I was too much of a pussy to just off myself and be done with it. Damn am I glad I didn’t go through with that though.

If I had, I never would have been in that rain that night. And I never would have found Hakkai. And that’s something I would have hated. Because he saved me just as much as I saved him, fuck, maybe even more.

And sometimes, I wish I could tell him how much he means to me, but I’m so bad with words, I’m sure I’d mess it up. So I show it in little things, a touch on the shoulders, a pat on the back, an occasional holding of hands.

But most recently I’ve been letting him in my bed during the rain. Not in a sexual way, though if it turned that way you sure as hell wouldn’t hear a complaint from me. He just sighs and curls up close to me, and I wrap my arms around him and whisper words to him that we both know are bullshit.

And every time this happens, I can’t help hope that someday, he’ll realize just why I love the rain.

A guy can dream, right?