Can't Stop What Is Coming And It's On It's Way

[desertions]

...I'm so scared of this.
I couldn't get an appointment to go back for more testing until next Tuesday
I want answers now.
Waiting just makes me nervous.
I find myself over analyzing everything I put in my mouth now.
Will I need medication for it? Will diet be enough? Will I have to take my levels everyday?
I'm twenty years old.
I'm too young for this.
And yes, I know, Diabetes is a fairly controllable disease, etc, etc.
But I can't help but be afraid.