desertions | I Don't Believe The Words You Sing Sometimes

I move out tomorrow. Hnn. Excited, nervous, sad and a few other emotions all at once. I'm really leaving home. I wonder if I'm really ready. I guess there's that part of me that's really just terrified I'll fall flat on my face. That I won't be able to cope, that'll be too hard to do. So many little nagging doubts clouding my brain. I'm trying not to give them much attention, but it's a little hard.

I've been in a complete manic phase for two days now, only able to get like four hours of sleep at a time. Not that any of it was good sleep, hnn. At least other things got done, things were sorted, and some fun rp plans were made, so that's always good, I suppose.

Alot of worry about other things too. About finances, classes, my grandma (what is she going to do without me? She does honestly depend on me for alot. I can't help but feel like I'm abandoning her), my friends, a certain someone who's been sick far too much lately for my taste. Worry worry worry. I'm such a fucking girl sometime, I swear to God.

And yet, I can't let that worry override and paralyze me like it often does. I want to take this chance and opportunity to get the best experience I can out of things. Things will happen or they won't, and worrying about them until I feel physically sick isn't going to change the outcome, so there's no point in doing so, really.

Hmm. Shower time, then I pack more. I need to disconnect the Wii and pack it as well.

But first? I finish this round of Peggle. Oh yes.

Song of the entry:

If this is a question
Is maybe a lie?
If yes doesn't mean it
Does when lessen why
You are held in a queue
Someone will be with you shortly
Say I'm wrong
You decide
I don't believe the words you sing sometimes

But then it's your life
Uh huh, it's your life
It's your life
Uh huh, it's your life

But, you've only got one...

If I just to spite you
Placate your disgrace
Will song turn to silence?
Will mask wear your face?
Are you down to be open?
Show me yours and I'll show you mine
Or are you down just to be down?
I don't believe the words you sing sometimes

But then it's your life
Uh huh, it's your life
It's your life
Uh huh, it's your life

But, you only got one

You've only got...one...