because the normal i had before doesn't exist anymore

it's not the same situation by any means, but i get this. not being the you that you were before x traumatic/life changing event happened and not knowing who you are on the other side of it. accepting that your once normal is no longer an achievable normal is really hard, but it's a big step in the healing processes and figuring out who are in the here and now. i'm sorry you have to go through any of this, and that your uncles have been such selfish assholes about everything.

the american health care system is the worst. i'm crossing my fingers and hoping your doctor is able to wrangle your insurance company for you. 🤞