I will never make it better, it will always hurt

[desertions]

Marie and I got in a big fight today
At first I tried to just swallow my pride and walk away
but then I saw her in the hall, and she sorta just turned her head away from me
and something...snapped
I started screaming and cursing her out
Then huffed my way to class
Where I couldn't concetrate to I took out my colored pencils and started slashing the paper..
And then when I saw her at lunch she acted like nothing happened
Which kinda pissed me off more
anyways, on the sorta plus side, it inspired a new poem

Apoligize
Fucked up again
No big suprise
Don't talk to me
Or my temper will rise
It's like a poison
That runs through my veins
You better watch out
Because I'm deranged
My tears are silent
But my screams are loud
One moment I'm floating
Then I'm down on the ground
Now tell me why
You never apoligize to me
Is there something
I just don't see
Like the reason
The blame is always mine
And why I spit out such stupid lines
Like I'm sorry
And please don't be mad
Well I'm fed up
Cause I've been had
This time I won't apoligize
I won't back down
Cause I'm tired of wearing
This sorry frown
This time things have to be different
You better apologize to me
Admit you were wrong
Or just let me be