desertions | Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have

Well I just spent most of the night in the ER
My grandma had to go in cause she fell about a week ago and has been having hip problems ever since
Like that wasn't bad enough, it was the same ER I had gone to when I tried to kill myself
I started totally freaking out, getting flashbacks and shit, of what I could remember anyways
Then I started having the sharp stomach pains again as well
I called my uncle, begging him to pick me up
But he refused
So I curled up in the waiting room, crying for a while
I couldn't even focus on my book or music I was so upset
God I can't stand hospitals..