I Wanna Let Go Of The Pain I've Held So Long

Ugh...
why won't this crappy feeling go away?
why can't I feel happy when I have good days
Why do i have to be such a god damn pesttimist...
I just want to be ok
I'm tired of hurting like this...
I don't know how much more I can take...



You are Angst!


Which Stereotypical CLAMP emotion are you?
brought to you by Quizilla


Fitting right?
I am The Self-Proclaimed Queen of Angst...

Can't Stop What Is Coming....

Ugh...
I hate this feeling...
This feeling of nothingness...
Everything sucks...
I can't beilive my mom is making me see my sister on mother's day...
then again, it seems like my mom doesn't care much what I think anymore...
maybe I wined too much...
maybe I was too me...
Who knows?
I've been so triggered lately...
how long can I last?
before I cut?
it's been three weeks....
I can hold out?
Or will I just break again?
Who knows?
not me...
and to top it all off...
I'm fucking sick...
I have a headache, stomache and sore throat...
and I had some of those chest pains again this morning...
Bah.....

After an hour of tweaking...

well I finally got my lj backround to something that satisfies meh! Sure it took me over an hour to get it right, but that's not the point, the point is i did it...