It's a nice day, for a white wedding...

Well I came back from san fransisco
my cousins' wedding was just beautiful.
it was on the beach, they kept it pretty simple..
and the ceremony was spiritual, but not religious
i really enjoyed it
and then i had fun at the recpetion
dancing with my 11 year old cousin zack
and then today we went to see Wendy's photos in her schools gallery...
and she and jason (my cousin who she married) invited me to come up for a week during the summer
the last time i stayed with jason (about two years ago) was awesome
Wow...
I think this was the first happy post I've had in a while...
I should try this more often...
being happy I mean...

May angels lead you in

Today sucked
June 2 will always suck
why?
because it's the anniversy of my grandfathers death
Grandpa...
now I've lost two dads...
God damnit...
no wonder I'm so fucking scared to let someone in...
they always either die or leave...
it's better to be alone in the first place than give them the chance to betray/ abandon you
but knowing that..
well it doesn't make things hurt any less
in fact,
in some ways it hurts more

Douglas Dale Carlson
1921-2001
R.I.P

I'll always love you grandpa