The Only Baggage You Can Bring Is All That You Can't Leave Behind

First day of school
Bleh
And I already have homework
Which I have yet to start
Later...
Talked to Kevin quite a bit today
Trying to cheer him up, as his situtation with Rachel is alot like mine with Mitchell...
Or at the very least, we can relate to one another
Apparently Nina is coming down this weekend
I'd love to see her again, but ten to one she'll be in Fullerton the whole time
And the crowd there spends so much time at his house
I'm not sure if I'm ready to see him yet...
But I don't want to just keep avoiding possible fun because of it either
I never realized moving on would be so hard
Sometimes I barely think of him
And then others it goes to punch me in the gut all over again
I don't want to be like this forever though
And it's hard going to school, putting on my facade, most of my friends don't know about the breakup, or how much it hurt me, etc...
I guess I'm good at covering things up
Or just used to doing so anyways...
I wish I could just break away from these emotions sometimes, I'm so sick of being so emotional
For God sakes, I started crying in the middle of a resturant
I need to get over this
Why does it seem like everytime I start to get better I just hit rock bottom again?

Song of The Entry:

Walk On by U2

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring...
And love is not the easy thing...
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on, walk on
What you got, they can't steal it
No they can't even feel it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight...

You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can't deny it
Can't sell it or buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Home...hard to know what it is if you never had one
Home...I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the heart is

I know it aches
How your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you steal
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress up
All that you scheme...

I <3 U2

I really need to get more of their cds, espically with how much I've been listening to them lately....

Stolen from Teh Rae Rae....

WRATH
1. Have you ever hit anyone in anger?
Once I think. I tend to more verbally violent then phyiscally....

2. Have you ever broken anything in anger?
Yes, I've smashed things, espically mirrors....

3. Have you ever said anything to a person you were angry with in a deliberate attempt to hurt or embarrass them?
I do that alot. I am a vicious vicous lady...

4. Have you ever planned or carried out revenge on a person who made you angry?
Sorta, not really, I just hold grudges, never do much about it

5. Have you ever done anything in anger that caused loss or injury to yourself?
Yes. Oh fucking yes. Do we want to start a list? Suicide attempt, cutting, burning, hitting the wall until my knuckles were raw....

6. Do you have "hot-button" topics of conversation that make you angry before any real discussion begins?
Yes. Like when people judge me, or I think they are. Often they aren't, but I take it that way anyways...

7. Have you ever given up on a friendship because of an argument?
Not just one. But I am beginning to let go of Marie because we argue like crazy....

SLOTH
1. Are there dirty dishes in your sink on a regular basis?
Yep. But they aren't usually mine. It's just as easy to put them in the dishwasher....

2. Do you often ask someone to fetch you a drink, TV remote or other item that you could easily get for yourself?
Yes. I'm lazy and...lazy

3. How often do you get fast food when there's plenty of time to cook a meal at home?
Not often, fast food is kinda growdy if you have it too often.

4. How often do you enjoy some form of entertainment when there are chores or tasks waiting to be done?
Often! Like doing this instead of homework!

5. Does your bathroom often have an empty cardboard tube in the toilet paper holder while a new roll sits on a nearby surface?
Yep...

6. Are you overweight even though you don't consider yourself gluttonous?
Yes, when was the last time I excerised, other then walking to and from the bus I mean....

7. Are there simple tasks you don't do (like recycling, dusting, folding clothes, etc.) because "I don't have time"?
Yep, my clothes tend to sit in piles getting wrinkled...

GLUTTONY
1. Do you often "super-size" your meals at fast-food restaurants?
Nope....

2. Do you patronize "all-you-can-eat" restaurants?
Occasionally

3. Do you ever eat so much you feel uncomfortable or ill?
Whenever I go to resturants...

4. Do you eat snack foods or candy between meals?
Yep yep

5. Have you ever forgotten about a dessert or sweets stored in your home? (This would be a contra-indicator.)
Nope, sweets are my weakness, they go first...

6. Are you overweight even though you don't consider yourself slothful?
I am the ultimate sloth!

7. Do you often finish leftovers "just to get rid of them"?
Nope, that's my uncle 's job


LUST
1. Do you regularly look at pron and/or fiddle?
Yes. I'm a perv, so sue me. A virgin perv, but still a perv...

2. Have you ever cheated on a partner without intending to break up with them?
Nope

3. Have you ever dated someone purely on the basis of their looks or willingness to have sex with you?
Nope, don't plan on doing so either

3. Have you ever had sex with someone despite knowing that there would almost certainly be negative consequences?
Nope, never had sex

5. Have you ever dumped a partner because they did not give you enough (or the right kind of) sex?
See above

6. Have you ever pressured your partner for a type of sexual gratification that they were not very willing to perform?
See above again

7. Have you ever slept with someone you were not attracted to merely because there was no alternative available? (The 2am Effect.)
See above damnit! I'm a fucking virgin! Fucking virgin...there's an oxymoron o.O

GREED
1. Have you ever stolen money or an item purely for its value?
Sorta, I was young and stupid. Wait, I'm still that. I just don't steal anymore....

2. Have you ever sold an item or service for a greatly inflated price?
Nope

3. If you had $1 million and were given the choice of keeping it all to yourself or giving all but $50,000 away to charities or causes you considered admirable and worthwhile, what would you do?
Depends on where my finances are. If I could spare it, then yes.

5. Would you trade a body part for money? If so, which one for how much?
Vagina, at this rate, I ain't gonna ever use it....

4. Assuming you could get away with it, would you steal money from a mega-corporation that made its profits by engaging in dishonest and harmful business practices?
Yes. They don't deserve that money anyways. I'd be like Robin Hood, but greedier...

5. Assuming you got an extremely good salary, would you work for a mega-corporation that made its profits by engaging in dishonest and harmful business practices?
No way in hell. I have a concience yo. Sorta...

6. Assuming you could get away with it, would you kill a "worthless" person (criminal, drug-addict, homeless, etc.) for $1 million?
Nobody, I repeat, nobody is worthless, so no, I wouldn't

7. Assuming you could get away with it, would you kill a person you admired for $1 billion?
...No...

PRIDE
1. Do you get angry when you are proven wrong or make a stupid mistake in public?
Yes, but mostly with myself

2. Have you ever responded to a person's complaint of poverty or illness with a comment on your own wealth or good health?
Nopes

3. Do you often interrupt a person stating their opinion on a subject with your own opinion whether it is contrary or not?
All the time...bad habit of mine...

4. Do you make excuses for not performing perfectly?
I try to anyways....

5. Do you avoid activities that you do not perform well?
Yes. Yes. I do quite frequently...

6. Do you consider people who hold opinions that differ from yours stupid or uninformed?
Nope, just wrong :p

7. Do you take pride in something that has nothing to do with any effort on your part? (i.e. Proud that the team you root for won a game, or "Proud to be Irish", etc.)
Probably...


ENVY
1. Do you enjoy seeing celebrities caught in embarrassing or illegal activities?
Yes! I live off Entertainment channels and magazines

2. Have you ever unfairly criticized someone who was richer or better looking than yourself?
Yes. I'm bitter about myself...

3. If you could start your life over from any point you chose and still retain the knowledge you have now, would you do it?
No. There is some crap that I never want to deal with again. That crap is my whole fucking life

4. Have you ever taken credit for someone else's work?
Hell no!

5. If you could instantly acquire either the abilities, looks, possessions (including money), or friends/lovers of anyone else in the world, which would you choose?
Wishes Are Like Dreams, They Never Come True...

6. If you could instantly acquire all the abilities, looks, possessions (including money), and friends/lovers of anyone else in the world but it would require the loss of those qualities in each person you chose, would you do it?
Nope, why should I gain at others expense?

7. If you could instantly acquire all the abilities, looks, possessions (including money), and friends/lovers of anyone else in the world but it would require the death of those persons you chose, would you do it?
What the fucking hell?!

SPECIAL BONUS QUESTIONS
1. If you could eliminate only one of the Seven Deadly Sins from your character, which would it be?
Gluttony. I eat too much

2. If you could eliminate all but one of the Seven Deadly Sins from your character, which would you keep?
Greed...I like stuff....