Cause We All Get Tired, I Mean Eventually, There's Nothing Left To Do But Sleep

I know I've done this quite a few times lately, but once again I don't feel like really whining/posting
So I leave you with a song that I hold dear to me, and as Suu once put it "the saddest song she has ever heard"

No Lies, Just Love by Bright Eyes


It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
Cause it's cold out here
And it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies
Just love.
Just love.

I will be pure
No, no, I know i will be pure
Like snow, like gold

Seriously, if you haven't heard this song, download it.
Out of all the Bright Eyes songs, this one has to be my favorite
Infact...here, I'll upload it for you all
http://s23.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=08CG5GQBD18I0167M2O2AV8160

Now, go and enjoy it
Warning, it can be a tearjerker, but in a good way...

And Blood And Fire Are Too Much For These Restless Arms To Hold...

Why do I keep screaming over everything?
It seems like lately I'm falling from my control
All I want to do is cut again, that used to always calm me down
How much longer can I keep fighting
Sometimes I think it's a manner of time before I start up again
And not just cutting, but self injury in general
Cutting, burning, scratching, even my episode last night
I really thought I had moved passed all that
That I was stronger then all that
What if I was wrong?

Sometimes I feel like my emotions are too much for me too handle
And if I don't find someway to get them out of me, they'll get to me
But I still try to fight it, because I remember how destructive my life was back then

I pushed away everyone who tried to help me
I was convinced that my pain was the only thing I could count on
And yet as much as I wanted more, I refused to work for it

Eventually, I found people I wanted to be better for
I found reasons to better myself
So why is the temptation so high again?
Am I weak?
I can't help but feel I am

I want to go back to last year
When stopping wasn't so hard
When things weren't so tempting
When I felt safe....

Because if I fall back into that
I don't know if I'll be strong enough to quit again
Doing it once was hard enough

Song of the Entry:

Blood and Fire by The Indigo Girls

I have spent nights with matches and knives
Leaning over ledges only two flights up
Cutting my heart, burning my soul
Nothing left to hold
Nothing left but blood and fire

You have spent nights thinking of me
Missing my arms but you needed to leave
Leaving my cuts, leaving my burns
Hoping I’d learn

But blood and fire
Are too much for these restless arms to hold
And my nights of desire they’re calling me
Back to your fold
And I am calling you, calling you
From 10,000 miles away
Won’t you whet my fire with your love
Babe

I am looking for someone who can take as much as I give
And give back as much as I need
You know and they still have the will to live ah no
Cause I am intense, I am in need
I am in pain, I am in love
And I feel forsaken you know
Like the things I gave away

And blood and fire
Are too much for these restless arms to hold
And my nights of desire they’re calling me
Back to your fold
And I am calling you, calling you
From 10,000 miles away
Won’t you whet my fire with your love
Babe, babe, babe

I am intense, I am in need, I am in pain, I am in love
You know I am intense, I am in need, I am in pain, I am in love
I am intense, I am in need, I am in pain, I am in love
And blood and fire
Are too much for these restless arms to hold
And my nights of desire they’re calling me
Back to your fold
And I am calling you, calling you
From 10,000 miles away
Won’t you whet my fire with your love
Babe
Won’t you whet my fire with your love
Babe now
Whet my fire with your love